A Good Hard

This is hard - that is what I woke up thinking Sunday am. And as I had time to reflect and pray on this thought I was left with many questions, few answers. The one thing I don't doubt is that we are supposed to be in Uganda but why then can it be so hard. I have spent my life up to recently measuring my status/success mostly by looking at my job, my life, my title, the things I had, the money I made, the number of people I managed, ...

Now, I have no title, I make no money, I have no reports but ... I have my friends and family and continue to meet amazing people. I am in a place that lacks material wealth but is rich in so many other things. The right things. I also have my faith, something that continues to grow and challenge me here.

This week was the start of the computer lab at Wakiso Christian International Academy (WCIA). A project I have been working on since I got here.

The kids 3rd grade and higher started, for the first time, to use and learn about computers. Also there was a new Ugandan computer instructor doing a great job teaching them. I am so amazed and humbled by this seemingly small thing that took so many great people as well as donations to get up and running. The kids are so excited as is the staff as am I.

With that accomplishment, I have been a little down this week, as my brain was trying really hard to belittle it. My reading continues to help but it also continues to challenge me. This is good. This is hard. I have spent sometime thinking on how I could redefine success but yesterday I woke up frustrated that I have not solved this problem yet. As I write this I realize that this is not a problem that can be googled but rather a journey. For me knowing that we not only get to write our life story but define what success looks like is extremely helpful.

I am constantly reminded how different our setting is from what I have known. I'm I the right place to battle this question; to think about how I want to define success going forward. I'm humbled constantly by the relationships, family and faith my new Ugandan friends have and how much more important it is than what I in the past have valued. So my journey continues -- it is hard but it is supposed to be which is good. :)